This past month has been turned upside down, full of surprises! Our family is moving back to the town where we built our first home (in the same county, not that far down the road). Everyone keeps saying, "I didn't know you were moving!" Guess what? We didn't know we were moving either! We weren't expecting it. We weren't planning it. Yet we are leaning in and very excited to settle in our new-to-us (100 year-old) home.

Since last month's blog post (which quite a few of you told me you've been using, yay!), I have had so many opportunities to practice mindfulness and not only while packing up our current home. Recently, my body has experienced some new health challenges which have pushed me to a place of discomfort and pain in my abdomen and pelvis. Mindfulness, breath work, my physical therapist, yoga, and naps have been my friend this past month. And amidst my self-discovery, I realized I have been mad at my body and my digestive system. I have been mad at myself for things over which I have no control (and some of which I do have control). It saddens me, I have not been kind and loving to myself.

In my teaching, I share lots of love. Love for those tight hamstrings, love for that achy back, love for wandering minds in meditation, love for yourself. In class today, one of my students from Rest Stop Ministries, repeated my words back to me when I could not model for her the full expression of a posture (due to my physical limitations). She looked right at me and reminded to send some of that love I teach to myself. Note to self: love yourself, all of yourself!

Is it hard for you to receive love sometimes? What about in certain parts of your body or with your body image? Do you throw love around like confetti to the rest of the world? Are you kinder to your neighbor or even that stranger than you are to yourself? Do you overlook the imperfections in someone else and then analyze your own imperfections? Do you see yourself as God sees you?

Friends, I am not perfect. You are not perfect. The one who loves us and created us, loves us like crazy. Yet our Creator did not create us to be flawless. We are perfectly imperfect, even when life is upside down and we forget to love ourselves!

Thank goodness God's love never lets go. Thank goodness when I spot the imperfections and the failings and the pain, God sees love and light and hope, upside down or not.

God sees creation.
God sees me.
​God sees you.
God sees love.

Do you? How will you love yourself today? 

By the way, yes that is me upside down in front of some local Lebanon Love! This amazing mural is on the side of one of my favorite boutiques in Lebanon, TN (around the corner from Bloom Yoga Studio). Iddy & Oscar's is a "Give Back Boutique" educating Kenyan orphans. If you have not yet strolled and shopped the Historic Lebanon Square, come visit us soon! 
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#letlovefly
#loveoneanother
#loveyourself

On Sunday night, I was asked to speak at one of my favorite places, Gallatin C.A.R.E.S.  This non-profit started by providing basic needs of food and economic relief and has grown into a place that cares for the soul as well.  They have a worship service that meets on Sunday evenings and I enjoy slipping in for worship.  I usually go alone but I never leave feeling alone.  

This past Sunday night was no exception.  I arrived in plenty of time (too much really)  and looked like a lost puppy as the volunteers prepped the meal for afterward and set up the sound system in preparation for worship.  I read my "sermon" for the millionth time (well, probably not that many, but a lot) and waited.  

My sinuses and allergies have been troubling this past week (along with nearly every other Tennessean) and so cough drops and water were my friend.  I have never shared a full message before.  I have been part of a "Youth" or "Young Adult" Sunday where you take turns running the service.  But, this was my first "real" sermon.  When I was asked if I would speak, my friend had to remind me that I was an "official Lay Speaker" in the church and trained to do this because I was trying to think of someone else who could fill in.  But, there was a little nudge that God wanted me to do this.  So, I said yes.  

The message was on 1 John 4 and Love.  God's love.  And, I can summarize it pretty easily:  God loves us so much that Jesus died for us and we are now to love as Jesus loved.  Love one another for God is love.  And, that is what Gallatin C.A.R.E.S. is all about.  They are God's love to the community every day by offering food, services, health care, worship, family and friendship.  They offer this to everyone.

Aren't we all called to be God's love each and every day?  I have been saddened this week by some hateful posts people have made on Facebook and Twitter.  I really don't think Jesus wants us to treat each other the way we often do.  And, history has not modeled for us well how to treat God's people with love and care.  

Now, I have learned that you shouldn't say "no" to God.  But, at this point in my calling, I do not feel called to pastor or preach.  But, as I shared that night, I was reminded that I feel called to share God's love and the message of hope and healing.

Funny enough, I awoke to silence on Monday morning.  My voice was completely gone - laryngitis had settled in.  I have had a few days to think about this message  and why it is so difficult for us as humans to model the love to one another that Jesus modeled for us.  And, while, I may not have a voice, I do not feel silenced.  Because I do not think that I need to shout God's love to share it.  Sometimes, I need to sit back and soak it up in the silence so I can remember for myself how much the Creator loves me.  Sometimes I need to step out and share it by telling someone about it with a whisper.  Sometimes I need to put God's love into action by doing something that looks more like shouting.  

No matter what it looks like for me or for you in any season, I just can't shake the feeling that God wants us to really love on each other.  I mean, really love each other and our differences.  Not just pretend like we do when we see each other at the local grocery store.  I had a friend make a post "complaining" about the service she received at her local Kroger on Facebook and within 12 hours there were 47 responses debating and defending the pros and cons of the rivaling local Publix and Kroger grocery chains.  Why are we so ready to defend our favorite grocery chain but so reluctant to defend God's people?  We'd rather beat them down and shout how wrong everyone else is.  Speck, meet plank.    

So, I am going to try to love.  I'm going to try to love all of God's people.  I will not be perfect at it, I will fail.  I will be judgmental and not even realize it.  I will be un-lovable at home and away from home.  But, I'm going to try and not be silenced.  I'm going to try and give God's people the love that God has given me.  Even if I have to do it in a whisper.